Tuesday, 28 August 2012

Everything is energy?

It started when I really started to get my head around this Bill Hicks quote:

"All matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration. We are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively. There is no such thing as death. Life is a dream and we are the imaginations of ourselves."

Pretty fucking powerful for a guy labelled a 'comedian' huh?

I'd just watched the film about his life, how he began, charting his path through alcohol and psychedelic drugs all the way through to his untimely and tragic death at just 32.

The part that really intrigued me was his use of psychedelic drugs. He used to go off to the ranch with a couple friends to trip out and open up his mind to new levels of consciousness. Don't think he's some crazed hippy looking to get out of his mind, he was doing this to genuinely expand his awareness and see beyond. 

No, really, he was.

I won't go hugely into it, but i'll strongly recommend you watch it, and anything by Bill Hicks for that matter. He's very funny, but more than that, he is incredibly honest, and it seems more of a preacher of Truth than a comedian. 

Great man. Really, incredible person.

This energy stuff got me thinking though, I mean, everything is energy? 

EVERYTHING?

Condensed to a slower frequency, so as to be perceived by the senses. 

Wow. 

Incredible.

Everything.

Back in the day when I was searching for answers, I read 'The Secret', which is a drawn out book (later drawn out over multiple books) on this very thing. Generating specific frequencies to attract specific events/objects/people etc. 

And then we have this quote: 

"Everything is energy and that’s all there is to it. Match the frequency of the reality you want and you cannot help but get that reality. It can be no other way. This is not philosophy. This is physics."

(There's talk of it being Einstein but I don't think it has been verified.)

We're really starting to piece together some interesting stuff here. Let's have a legit Einstein quote up in this too:

“Concerning matter, we have been all wrong. What we have called matter is energy, whose vibration has been so lowered as to be perceptible to the senses. There is no matter.”

Now this is looking exciting. I mean, isn't this quote the answer to everything, ever? Is it?

IS IT?

It certainly explains 'no self' scientifically. I mean, EVERYTHING IS ENERGY. And we have the science to prove it.

PROOF.

Why isn't this huge news?

I've been looking around all day, seeing everything as slower vibrational energy. I'm such a renegade. I'm like Neo from 'The Matrix', just much better looking.

This has really got inside my head, this is fucking awesome. It also ties in with this:

"There is no division in reality." by our very own Schopenhauer.

Not sure what to make of this right now. It's all too much.

*covers head in tinfoil hat*


Monday, 6 August 2012

So Selfish

So I got caught up again. Fuck. I mean, fuck. Thoughts are incredibly powerful and seductive. They'll sneak in the back exit and claw you back in. Working to build up and puff out the chest of a self that doesn't exist.

And it doesn't exist.

It's been a long time since I wrote that.

I've been caught up in life, chasing shiny things, things I don't really need but again, work in service of the lie. The thought structure remains, feeding thoughts of superiority and glory. They feed the lie. 

Thoughts feed the ego structure, you always win in your mind. You always come up with the perfect line, at the perfect time, to look super fucking cool.

I've listened to Ciaran's mp3 of a chat with Nick Restrapo from back in the day, and the truth of his words hit me again, as to why people just fuck off after liberation.

The thing is, if a person has been selfish their whole life, living a life fuelled primarily by vanity that services a self that we know now doesn't exist, and you knock out the self, then why bother doing anything?

You neutralize that person, because the thought structure is all me, me, me. Then when there is no 'me', what is there to service? Why bother helping anyone wake the fuck up, because that person gets no benefit from it, right?

And that's when it kind of dawned on me, that maybe I am selfish. I mean, really fucking selfish. Yeah ok, I stuck around during Ruthless Truth and popped a few people, but who was I really doing it for? What were my motives? And why the fuck did I disappear? Why did I go to Las fucking Vegas?

Selfishness. Plain and simple.

So i've realised this now. My ego structure is incredibly selfish.

It wasn't always this way. I used to be caring as a child (Freud up in this beyach) then life kinda beat me down, people fucked me over, and I turned in on myself and vowed to walk this path alone. I didn't really rationalize this to myself at the time, but in retrospect that's how it was.

I thought, ok, i'll figure things out on my own, and let everyone get on with their own lives. So when I found this, I almost didn't want to share.

I had to find it, and actually look, and boom, enlightenment. But, everyone walks their own path, so let them find it themselves, thought I.

Selfishness.

I'm not sure if everyone had this turning point that made them bitter, or it's just my own story. It's an interesting point, and I think i'm waking up to the fact that I need to help other people. I mean, that's a fucking retarded thing to say right? I should have known that anyway, which I kinda did, but this time i've realized it to be true.

I need to clean my shit the fuck up. This movement is incredibly weak right now, there's very little potency to it.

The thing with Ciaran is that he is incredibly passionate, and I think that's this movement needs. There's a whole heap of shit all over my passion right now, and i'm not going to layer any Anthony Robbins over it, i'm going to clean the shit off and see what's lurking there in reality and see if we can't light a fire on this motherfuckin' rock.

Watch this space.